Beach Day

I wonder if I chose only one moment to go back to, which one it would be? It might be the day Nana took me to the beach.

Stephanie Dianne Kordan
11 min readAug 6, 2021
My grandmother, Nana, Santa Monica beach, 1940s

The summer before her ninety-seventh birthday, my grandmother, Nana, passed away in her sleep. She was living in an elderly care home, although I hesitate to use the word care. It wasn’t where she belonged, that’s for sure.

The place had an odor of canned spaghetti microwaved in a plastic container, combined with a musty smell, like mothballs or formaldehyde. Her narrow bedroom barely fit a twin bed and an easy chair in front of the TV. The first time I saw her in this place, I felt gutted by the sheer loneliness of it. I wanted to take her to live somewhere else, somewhere beautiful, maybe by the beach.

During an afternoon visit, I decided Nana needed new scenery. So we all got into the minivan as I drove us from Beverly Hills through Coldwater Canyon to the 101 freeway to our house. I didn’t give her a chance to change out of her purple velour bathrobe. “Ah, who cares anyway,” she shrugged, smoothing out the fabric with her wrinkled hands. “Yeah, you’re just coming over for a few hours,” I remarked, happy to have her with us. We parked in the drive and carefully helped her make it up the front steps, then I fixed her a plate of Jarlsberg cheese and Triscuits for a snack…

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Stephanie Dianne Kordan
Stephanie Dianne Kordan

Written by Stephanie Dianne Kordan

Artist, mother, writer, memoirist. Currently writing a memoir about my unexpected DNA discovery.

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